Last day of 2025
Dear Diary,
I’m not exactly in the mind to do any reflection right now, due to feelings of being annoyed and the fact that I have to work for 5 holidays without compensation and also very likely without bonuses. Anyways, I will try, it’s been 2 whole years and a half since any entries, and I swore I won’t give up on this diary, looking back at my previous entries, I have forgotten that my last entry to my second last entry was also one year and something apart, which makes me hope that the next entry won’t be like half a decade later, that would be quite sad, and signifying something bigger, like a lack of interest in self reflection? Since people change so so much in different points in their lives, and it’s good to view your life as a whole and not fragmented section.
From my last entry, it seems like I was in limbo land, one thing I noticed being in limbo land is how much more I appreciate things, I guess at that time since I wasn’t part of any type of group, and my time wasn’t largely taken up my a job or a rigid class schedule, I was able to have crap ton of time to reflect and remember things. It also helps that it was indeed a huge turning point in life.
Anyways, hi, time skip it’s the last day of 2025, I’m currently in some godforsaken warehouse in Shanghai, being idle but forced to be here in a very uncomfortable chair with a heater roasting my right ass cheek, it’s either the heater or no heating in which I will freeze. The air quality is technically good here, however, there is a dang excavator right outside of the warehouse kicking up a dust storm, at one point it hit the warehouse we’re in, making a loud sound and the earth shook a little bit, then the WiFi went out. The annoying part is the fact that we’re very behind schedule, and yet something which is not under my skill set decides to break therefore we are sat here idle and soaking in the stressful vibe.
There were many highlights since my last entry, lost previous partner, got a job, got another partner, discovered all you can drink for free entry in night clubs, ate a lot of buffets, traveled a lot around the island and got some great views, hiked a bunch and got some great views, walked a bunch, went to all the pet cafes and petting zoos and pet a lot of types of animals, had a really great birthday, hung out with international friend group which got more international because partner is from a new country, sat on a motorbike behind said partner, had an accident on said motorbike, took partner to Malaysia which coincides with Hari Raya, went whale watching, got laid off, went to Europe; almost drowned and probably got duck fleas; started a new job, went room hunting, moved to a new and better location, booked a booth in a club for the first time to celebrate said partner’s birthday, found an amazing breakfast shop, went surfing, little spontaneous trip to Vietnam, read books by the beach and also a nice spot with chairs, went to Shanghai on business trip and experienced a 24 hours spa that went viral on Instagram and went to all those Instagram famous places there, it was not bad but definitely one of those Instagram vs reality moment.
I guess these 2 years has indeed been a blast, I guess I wouldn’t have imagine living such a life, not complaining, however, in the coming future, I would like to build something more solid, permanent proper housing, job with better work life balance, kids, growing a community, grow savings etc for now. I’m absolutely content with life and got everything I ever wanted (except for being in a crippling work culture, that I would very much like to change). There is a huge part of me that needs to change to be a better person and impact others in more positive ways, I guess I would like to work on my health as well, I’ve got a bad back at this age and that’s not great, and I’m quite sure it’s due to being sat in an office all day everyday. Even though I’ve got less than 2 years of work experience, it feels like I’ve been working forever. I’m not sure if I can stand the working life for another 20 years… but I really don’t know how to get out of this situation.
Anyways, here are some pictures which is in my “favourites” folder.
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| Mont Blanc… I think from a plane |
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| A pretty good French band in a Feit in Ferney, not sure what the festival is about again though |
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| Mekong Delta boat ride in Vietnam |
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| An Ping Thousand trees Shanghai |
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| Sunflower farm at some random spot close to partner’s grandparent’s flat |
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| Jet Deu Geneva Anyways, Happy New Year, hello 2026. I just know, one day, when I have more responsibilities on my shoulder, I’ll look back to this days as the good ol times, and be happy that I have truly lived |
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